I didn’t realise how your fingertips were caressed with callousness from a previous past time until they met my own. I didn’t realise the summer left its unforgettable mark not just on your olive skin, but in the form of another girl. Two days ago I looked into your eyes for the first time and I sank. Your glasses weren’t there to protect me from drowning, but I’ve recently realised I’d rather drown by loving you than swim. Saints kiss your neck every day and night but if I had a choice, it would be me instead. I thought being devoured by others would lessen the grip you have around my heart, but it only tightened; they were and never could be you. It breaks me that we protected our heads/hearts with a cloud of intoxication to revel in the desire we craved for months. And all that’s left of the temptation we caved into is distant, drunken memories of what your skin felt like, and what it just might have been like had the timing been right. How can it be that every day, saying goodbye is hardest when I know you’ll always be going home to her?
2016 has brought us a whirlwind of emotions. It’s felt like a bloody long year too!
From restarting my degree at the university of my dreams, to meeting some of the truly wonderful people I now hold dear to me, it’s been a crazy year that I wouldn’t change for the world. It’s also taught me how important it is to keep your loved ones close: to cherish every second you have with them, because life is far too unpredictable and we just cannot know when our time on this earth will be over.
Strangers have become best friends. Best friends have become family. Family ties have grown stronger (in some cases, mind!) 2016 has been a year of life lessons, too. I’ve learnt that people will come in and out of your life, but those who are supposed to be in it will come back to you eventually. Those who don’t come back, well, for the briefest moments, they were in your life for a reason. All we can do is learn from what they’ve taught us, and move on with what they’ve left behind. Life is too unpredictable to hold grudges and negativity against those we once cared for.
I look forward to a year of positivity ahead of me. As cliche as it sounds, I’m very much looking forward to leaving negativity behind me in 2016, and moving forward with those who stuck by me relentlessly this year, bringing me nothing but happiness and filling my life with love.
Happy 2017! Let’s make it a good one.
“In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.” – Unknown
If you look for inspiration in others, you’ll never find it in yourself.
“What matters most is how well you walk through the fire.”
– Charles Bukowski
There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.