Happy new year! I know we’re a good 5 days in to 2016 but amidst a hectic work schedule and spending time with my loved ones, I’ve neglected my blog.
Usually, this is the time where people set goals and ambitions for the year ahead, only to bitterly neglect them a month later. Which makes me wonder why people set them at all…
This year, I’ve decided to set (hopefully) realistic ambitions based on my experiences of the rather traumatic last year in addition to previous ones. Here they are:
- To remain in good health – Obviously I have no real control over this but I’m keeping my fingers crossed to be pain free with no trips to the emergency room, or at least not as many as last year.
- To continue growing – This covers both spiritual, emotional and academic aspects of my life.
- To be happy – To be happy within yourself is imperative and something very undervalued in today’s society. With mental health issues at an all time high, true contentedness is underrated; we accept far less than what we deserve in most aspects of our lives. Once upon a time, I based my happiness entirely on the people I surrounded myself with and that was one of the biggest mistakes I’d ever made – people can so very easily walk out of your life as they walked in and it’s a tough loss to accept. Being at peace with yourself and embracing your qualities is one of the fundamental pieces in learning to love and define yourself. We aren’t defined by the people we’re surrounded by.
I guess so much of 2015 was severely impacted by my anxiety, and by people who contributed to my anxiety attacks, that I forgot how to enjoy myself and appreciate how far I’d come. Doing the things you love, living life to the full, these are all so incredibly important and so easily overlooked. Spending a lot of time in hospital allowed me to reflect on what I really needed from life and essentially that’s my own strength and support – no one else’s. Over the course of 2015, I grew close to a few people only to have them walk straight out of my life and bonds I believed to be so sacred to me were shattered in a matter of seconds. I’ll love and cherish them so much but I can’t force them to come back and that’s okay. Ultimately, I cannot control who enters or leaves my world but to love and to lose results in great strength and bloody fantastic poetry.
I’ve also come to appreciate how much I have; an exceptionally strong and loving family, relatively (kind of) good health and countless reasons to be happy.
Have a safe and happy 2016! 🙂
(PS featured image I took from my holiday has nothing to do with this post, it’s simply a reminder of fond memories 2015 gave me.)